Today I went to Kohl's. I needed to get some new pants for the upcoming fall/winter season. I've been living in capris for the past 5 months, and I know those will not cut it much longer. Needless to say, after trying on the jeans in the dressing room, I was thoroughly disgusted by what I saw in the mirror. It's 3 hours later, and I've barely been able to stop crying - I hate myself beyond belief :( So I thought I had better do something to really get serious about losing this weight. I actually started yesterday by eating low carb, with a total of about 10 carbs for the day. But after seeing myself in that full length mirror, I know that I have to do more than just "TRY" to watch what I eat...I need to actually write about my attempts, too, and that's why I've started this blog. I plan on continuing to use LoseIt to track my food nutrients, and, in addition, I am going to try to take a picture of EVERYTHING I eat.
My morning weight was 237. I know that may not seem like much to many, but to me it's devastating. 3 years ago I was at 185, and thought I was fat then.... oh, to have those days back!!!! Yes, 185 was overweight, but 237 is OBESE, and that disgusts me.
In 7 months, I'll be 50 years old, and although I have more than 50 pounds to lose, I hope to get as close to that goal as possible by my birthday. That will put mt at 187, and then I will allow myself up to an addition year to lose at least 40 pounds more, so that I can be a "healthy" weight of 147.
It's going to be a long, very hard journey, but I pray I can do it.
Today I went to Kohl's. I needed to get some new pants for the upcoming fall/winter season. I've been living in capris for the past 5 months, and I know those will not cut it much longer. Needless to say, after trying on the jeans in the dressing room, I was thoroughly disgusted by what I saw in the mirror. It's 3 hours later, and I've barely been able to stop crying - I hate myself beyond belief :( So I thought I had better do something to really get serious about losing this weight. I actually started yesterday by eating low carb, with a total of about 10 carbs for the day. But after seeing myself in that full length mirror, I know that I have to do more than just "TRY" to watch what I eat...I need to actually write about my attempts, too, and that's why I've started this blog. I plan on continuing to use LoseIt to track my food nutrients, and, in addition, I am going to try to take a picture of EVERYTHING I eat.
My morning weight was 237. I know that may not seem like much to many, but to me it's devastating. 3 years ago I was at 185, and thought I was fat then.... oh, to have those days back!!!! Yes, 185 was overweight, but 237 is OBESE, and that disgusts me.
In 7 months, I'll be 50 years old, and although I have more than 50 pounds to lose, I hope to get as close to that goal as possible by my birthday. That will put mt at 187, and then I will allow myself up to an addition year to lose at least 40 pounds more, so that I can be a "healthy" weight of 147.
It's going to be a long, very hard journey, but I pray I can do it.
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